Aaaaaaand on that note, I should probably be getting back to revising for my physics exam. *shudders*
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24 August 2011
Summing up what's goin' on in my head.
Aaaaaaand on that note, I should probably be getting back to revising for my physics exam. *shudders*
xx
20 August 2011
Creepy Enough To Make Enemies
After many years of going to school and being forced to interact with others, I'd come to the realisation that I am what you call "socially awkward" quite some time ago. Now, one person in my class disagrees (probably just to spite me, but I digress*) and says I'm just really nerdy. But whenever I partake in a conversation, at some point, someone will inevitably point out my awkwardness. The topic of our conversation then changes to how awkward I am until it boomerangs to what we were originally talking about. My point being that, yes, I may be an outgoing person, but that does not mean I know how to socialise in a manner that the youth of today considers "normal". Then again, I've never been much of a fan of following the norm. Actually, some people's first impression of me tends to scare them off. Apparently, I'm too passionate about everything. (I'm not saying that I'm an overly dramatic chick; I'm just confident of how I feel about things. Once I have an opinion of something, I will go to the ends of the Earth to back up why I feel that way. I research it, have facts that play a role in the formulation of my thoughts on things, and talk about whatever it is with other people (usually when they feel the same way). Heck, if it's a big thing, I'll go to conventions about it.
The thing is that I want people to know what type of person I am right off the bat. I don't settle for small talk. No talking about the weather, that new film that blew my socks off, or any of that superficial stuff I can only talk about when someone knows me too well to "get to know me" all over again, you know what I mean? Like, if I don't know you, I'll tell you about my obsession with Star Wars, Spielberg, Sailor Moon, Harry Potter, and YouTube the majority of the time. I'm not going to start talking to you about how easily we'll get along cos we're all so freaking nice or current events or whatever it is normal people talk about when they don't know each other. I'll give you a sense of what I'm like as if we'd known each other for years, not polite conversation and shyness. I assume that makes me come off as too eager about everything and it makes me look creepy enough to make people dislike me and slither on to the dark side of the Force (or the unachievably fabulous bunch that is the "cool crowd"). But the people who are worth being friends with actually stick around and indulge in all the things we, as a group, are passionate about. We sit around making Harry Potter/Star Wars-related "Your Mum" jokes, talk about our favourite race in Star Wars (even though I don't like the prequel trilogy, I think I'm leaning towards the Gungans, cos they live underwater....or maybe the Hutts, cos they're so disgusting and sleazy, the perfect description of a gang), the last book we bought, and just a bunch of unbelievably nerdy things that make me happy to be unpopular.
I suppose what I am trying to say is that I think I'm moving in the right direction with the whole "this is how I introduce myself" thing (try to read that in the least "I-am-holier-than-thou" tone of voice you can, because I didn't mean to sound pompous or anything). If I introduce myself by showing people the way I always am, they'll know if they can handle how much I tend to spaz over things. If they can't, they'll know better than to get me going on something I like so I don't annoy them. If they can, however, we can become friends and then we can all spaz over things. Because, as we all know, spazzing out as a group is a lot more fun than doing so on your own...in your room....with your Gryffindor robes on... I mean, what?
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*Someone in my class likes to go against everything I say, for some reason. If trying to make me seem as though I'm in the wrong all the time is what floats his/her boat, then who am I to get in the way of someone's happiness? I'll just sit back and enjoy life as it comes instead of trying to make people look bad in order to get a sense of superiority, yeah?
The thing is that I want people to know what type of person I am right off the bat. I don't settle for small talk. No talking about the weather, that new film that blew my socks off, or any of that superficial stuff I can only talk about when someone knows me too well to "get to know me" all over again, you know what I mean? Like, if I don't know you, I'll tell you about my obsession with Star Wars, Spielberg, Sailor Moon, Harry Potter, and YouTube the majority of the time. I'm not going to start talking to you about how easily we'll get along cos we're all so freaking nice or current events or whatever it is normal people talk about when they don't know each other. I'll give you a sense of what I'm like as if we'd known each other for years, not polite conversation and shyness. I assume that makes me come off as too eager about everything and it makes me look creepy enough to make people dislike me and slither on to the dark side of the Force (or the unachievably fabulous bunch that is the "cool crowd"). But the people who are worth being friends with actually stick around and indulge in all the things we, as a group, are passionate about. We sit around making Harry Potter/Star Wars-related "Your Mum" jokes, talk about our favourite race in Star Wars (even though I don't like the prequel trilogy, I think I'm leaning towards the Gungans, cos they live underwater....or maybe the Hutts, cos they're so disgusting and sleazy, the perfect description of a gang), the last book we bought, and just a bunch of unbelievably nerdy things that make me happy to be unpopular.
I suppose what I am trying to say is that I think I'm moving in the right direction with the whole "this is how I introduce myself" thing (try to read that in the least "I-am-holier-than-thou" tone of voice you can, because I didn't mean to sound pompous or anything). If I introduce myself by showing people the way I always am, they'll know if they can handle how much I tend to spaz over things. If they can't, they'll know better than to get me going on something I like so I don't annoy them. If they can, however, we can become friends and then we can all spaz over things. Because, as we all know, spazzing out as a group is a lot more fun than doing so on your own...in your room....with your Gryffindor robes on... I mean, what?
xx
*Someone in my class likes to go against everything I say, for some reason. If trying to make me seem as though I'm in the wrong all the time is what floats his/her boat, then who am I to get in the way of someone's happiness? I'll just sit back and enjoy life as it comes instead of trying to make people look bad in order to get a sense of superiority, yeah?
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