25 February 2012

On My Mind (every minute of every day)

**edit: I apologise for the strange format in which this post has been published. I have no idea how it came to be, but let's not tickle the sleeping dragon, eh? Don't want to risk losing the entire post by pokin' through the settings here and there. So, pretend I've written this in the form of an organic, free verse poem and enjoy.

So, recently, I've been going through a “writer’s block” type of phase, like I’ve said before. As a
result, I’ve wanted to relax and calm my nerves by watching a few films and television programmes. Upon
doing this, I *finally* discovered the beautiful show that is “the Office”.

I know this is a really random topic, but please bear with me. This is my most recent obsession.
Such a ridiculously intense obsession, that I’ve neglected to follow my own advice on how to stop
procrastinating and just went  ahead and watched “the Office” for hours on end. On a normal day, I start
studying at around 4:00pm or 5:00pm. Now that I’m addicted to “the Office”, I start studying at 8:00pm
or even 10:00pm for no good reason. When I think rationally (without the temptation of using the
Internet to watch “the Office”), I can’t understand my actions from the night before, to be frank. Why
satisfy my longing for relaxation with an immediate solution that will actually worsen my situation when
I run out of time to get things done? When I’m thinking irrationally (the computer looks at me waiting to
be used; Michael Scott’s calling me over to pick out the most affordable, yet efficient health plan for the
rest of my co-workers at Dunder Mifflin), my reasoning somehow mutates to that of, say, Paris Hilton,
and I decide that watching the Office will make me happier a lot sooner than finishing all of my work on
time. Besides, should the next day go horribly because of my lack of preparation, I could always go home
to “the Office” and keep watching those magnificent actors in action, right?

Here’s the thing about me: I am weak when it comes to entertainment. I really don’t understand
how I could have the willpower to remove meat from my diet completely, but can’t resist going on
YouTube and watching “The Office”. My obsession is getting pathetic. I’ve been trying to find people
from this school to match the personalities of the characters from the show (by the way, I call dibs on
Dwight. I’ve asked others and they agree. I don’t know what that says about me, but hey, Dwight’s cool,
so what do I care?).

I think you guys can learn a few things from this:
1) I have no willpower.
2) Dwight’s awesome.
3) Trying to avoid doing your work comes with some really gnarly consequences. Some of
these include the inability to think properly (I’ve made way too many mistakes in math
class), considering taping your eyes open because you could just collapse when walking
from being so tired, and acting as if you’ve been on some special medication (a teacher
actually asked me that. I was just at that stage in which the lack of sleep completely takes
over you and you can’t help acting like a lunatic). So, kids, don’t be like me. Ever. Please, for
your own sake. Do your work, adopt normal sleeping patterns, and…I don’t know…eat your
vegetables?                                                                                                            

24 January 2012

further.explanation.

In my absence, I've spent an awful lot of time here

5 January 2012

DON'T BELIEVE IN IT

One of the many things I don't believe in or, more accurately, do not promote are New Year resolutions. Granted, they are a brilliant idea. But, being myself, a person who is very much into list-making, it's just a to-do list that takes more time to complete. Then again, I've never really been faithful to to-do lists, so I avoid those, too.

If you've been reading this blog for some time, you'll know that I tend to be impulsive, which is mostly a good thing, considering I'm not much of a person who listens to her "inner frat boy". This means that, if I want to do something, I'll do it in the moment. I don't write it down on a post-it note only to think of the end of the year as my deadline. Obviously, this isn't the case with everything, as a lot of things I'd like to achieve require some work that takes months, if not years, to achieve. But, let's face it. Most of the items listed in resolutions are short-term goals that don't require as much effort and time as, say, dropping the cigarette or losing weight. Allow me to provide some examples:

1. I wanted become a vegetarian. This is a relatively long-term goal (that is, depending on how strong your habit of eating meat, regardless of how much you actually like it, is). I happily and quickly quit red meat, which is the grossest meat there is, was never really into fish, and was left with poultry. Chicken might very well be the greatest creation God has so magnanimously blessed us with. The process of giving it up wasn't as painful as I thought it'd be, though. My sister, who's been vegetarian for as long as I can remember (exaggeration. *coughs* five years.) helped me find some kick-butt substitutes. Despite the fact that I don't eat meat, I wouldn't call myself a vegetarian. To me, true vegetarians are the ones who do it for animal rights. I'm doing it because I've read some gruesome things about meat and want to live a healthier lifestyle, so...I don't consider myself to be a real vegetarian. I'm just someone who doesn't eat meat. My point is that this was something I wanted to do, so I did it. It took some time, but I didn't do it as a goal for the year; a goal towards "a new me". I did it the moment I decided it was something I wanted to pursue.
2. I wanted to watch more films. There cannot be an easier short-term goal than that. I did it instantly. I just go to Blockbuster every other week and walk out with five DVDs in my hand.
3. Traveling more. Or rather, go on holiday more often than every decade (ugh). I asked my mom if, for one year, she could ignore how broke we are and just save up on the side for a trip to Disneyland next Christmas. I might as well check that off my list as "done" cos it's almost a year away. Most probably, the money will be there by then.
4. Allow my short fuse to not spark into a roaring fire so effortlessly. I'm currently working on that. See? Think it, do it (that's what she said).

Basically, what bothers me is that people think that the only time to set a clean slate for yourself is New Year's. That is definitely not true. You can and should do whatever you want (under certain restrictions, yo) if it's something you really want to do and think it'll be beneficial for you. You can change in the middle of August for all everyone cares. Besides, if you wait until a certain time, or keep putting it off, you'll only be wasting time, waiting for the moment to be doing what will make you happy...

Did it get too cheesy for everyone else, too?